Times Flies

Anyway, school has been terrible. I've been completely burdened down with work. I've got 2 Higher Level IB classes and 3 AP classes, so I'm pretty bogged down, no time for art or even writing, which really sucks as that's like my reason to live. It's a real shame because I've been looking over my artwork, and while it's not very good by any means, I'm rather proud of it. Well, I've survived the year. My AP Lit teacher is my Sunday School teacher so that's nice. We've been studying global issues the whole year though, which get's tiring after a while. We've been Seminary has been more sucky than ever, because no breakfast and having to walk to school this year, and every time I walk I feel like just walking in front of a car. Hate it so much.

With theatre we've first worked on our RI which I had a hard time starting because I flitted around topics, jumping from Comedy of Manners to Peking Opera before finally settling on the Court Masques, and I still managed to finish it on time. We did the Boyfriend for the musical, but I didn't make it in because I like can't dance and ended up being an usher managing the VIP tickets. Didn't make it in Cyrano, the IASIS drama thing, either. With are IP we ended up doing this weird surrealist play with a bird motif where I played the crazy uncle who is a conspiracy theorist. The thing sorta pissed me off because all the production roles like writing and makeup were taken, so I got like no creative control, and with not having any time for art I just wanted to do something creative for a school project. Grr. Still haven't written the write up for that yet, don't really got anything to write about for only being an actor. 

School in general has just been lonely, don't feel like a really belong anywhere. I've made a few friends, but until recently I didn't really have any close ones. Usually eat lunch alone. Just hated it so much, being surrounded by people but feeling so alone, not connecting with any of them. Couldn't really take it much longer. Eventually I made friends with this one girl in my English class, she's a huge metalhead. I'm now close friends with her, and while she can be a bit of a downer and struggles with her own problems with depression she's been a big support (and I've been for her). She's also in the school's animal welfare club, in the campus cat subclub with me, and we hung out together on sterilization day (after watching a neutering I literally went into shock, not doing that again).  Now, I've found I've developed more than a bit of a crush for her . Not this again. Anyway, she knows how I feel, and once she confessed to me that "I think I like you a little." Anyway, she is a afraid of committing to relationship, so we aren't actually together or anything. Whatever. Anyway, once over my winter break she came over to my house, we played some games and did random crap, she stayed for dinner, that's been like the highlight of like my life since last journal. Despite my youngest sister being annoying she said she really enjoyed, so all is good. 

In the middle of this semester there was a break where my uncle Paul and my grandma came over to Indonesia. Paul brought with him To Be or Not To Be, which is like choose your own adventure Hamlet and super awesome. We did crap while he was here, like stay at this one place near a volcano for a day and Taman Safari and go to little Indonesia with their cassowaries and komodo dragons there. Also got some weird food, finally tried some fresh durian. Strange, but good. They went to Jogakarta with my mom, then left. Yeah.

This winter break has mainly been terrible, because I've been working the whole break. I only agreed to work because my mom said they wanted to come back because I was the only person who knew how to run the wiki I set up for them, but they only had me work with that the very last day I was working, I just sorted papers the rest and it freaking pissed me off. I have two IB projects I was supposed to get done over break I've had no time to work on because of that, and my parents still haven't gotten me a paypal account so I can't use any of that money. I was sick on Christmas, again, and didn't get any iTunes money, which is like the one thing I was like looking forward to all last year. Arggg. At least I got new headphones and this guitar/headphone-to-USB-jack which is nice, let's me circumvent this clogged auidoport. Anyway, highlight of break was day with friend, though I also went on a trip to Mirasole, which is the ambassador's guest house, for 3 days. There we like watched a bunch of movies and assembles a puzzle and played games and went to a botanical garden and crap. Meh, back to school in 3 days. Just want it to all go away, hate it all. Don't have any time to do anything I want or even need to do. 

EDIT: Forgot to mention Chrismas and New Years. I got a bunch of steam games, a real keris, new head phones, and this guitar thing. There are cool. Went to someone's house and played Rock Band on New Years, Painkiller and Chop Suey are fun to sing. Best night.